Simon looked at the fire again. He was still surprised that Elijah wasn't telling him to go to hell or hadn't kicked him out. But he wasn't sure how to handle the questions. "When I'm with him, I am..." was he? Was he ever really happy. "I feel bad for what I've done and I can't imagine I could have and I never want to do it again. He is good. He's the better man, and I don't deserve him, and I should be grateful he's even wanted me. I don't ever want to hurt him..." And then he would leave, and it would be hard to remember any of that.