He already had, but he couldn't tell Elijah, especially after what had just happened. Zech... He loved Zech. He told himself he did, over and over again. He wanted to be with Zech. And yet he kept telling himself that one more time wouldn't matter, that Zech wouldn't mind, that it meant nothing after all, that he needed the money, that all of this would be over once he had moved to York. "Yeah..." he said. And even now in all his shame and guilt and embarrassment, he wished for Elijah to change his mind. He didn't know what to say.