"What would ye have me do, ma? 'Dear Mama and Papa, my husband left me in shame with a bairn in be belly'?! I was so ashamed, ma, ye don't even ken how ashamed I feel." Jacob began to cry and Ruth forced herself to calm down for his sake. "What am I goin' ta do now? Who is goin' ta hire me if I look fer work so I can feed me bairn? Do ye think I like burstin' in on ye wit' news like this? God almighty, I made a horrible mistake even lookin' at that man!" She was all over the place with her emotions.