Anthony looked at the ground, bouncing his leg in anxiety as he waited for Elijah to return so that he wouldn't have to be alone with his stupid mind anymore. Though he now had basically no choice but to sit there and reflect, Anthony did come to one conclusion, a conclusion that he had been trying very hard to deny and ignore before, but that had been way too obvious for even him to keep pushing away like that. And he immediately felt worse as soon as he realized. Elijah is just a friend, this would just make him uncomfortable, Anthony should just deny it ever existing and should just be satisfied with the friend he has without wanting more.