Elijah immediately hung his head shamefully and stared at the floor. "I.. haven't met anyone else like that. You're the first to know .. as far as I can tell. Besides, who'd want someone like me? N-not that.. I should be looking anyway. I would never judge you Simon, but.. well... I mean.. even if I haven't been to church in forever.. I know what they think about this. I .. don't feel like risking it is worth it.." He'd totally risk it if he met someone who he could love, but what was the point? He stared down at his gloved hands and frowned more feeling his chest grow heavy by the conversation. "T-thanks for.. thinking that. But.. I could never be happy." He patted his arm. "All the more.. reason for you to be."