Elijah shook his head and hung his head feeling a strange combination of relief and embarrassment. "I.. I'm sorry. I misunderstood. I really don't want to lose you, Anthony. He sighed and closed his eyes. He wanted to sleep even now as things felt so exhausting, he was very worried about Anthony's state in mind and had no idea what to do. Was it right to go to a doctor? But the idea of what they'd do made him decide against it. "If.. there's anything I can do.. please.. say it. It can't be easy for you and I am sorry I am so useless."