Kitty rose her brow and held out her hand. "It's not like I was like this when I was trying to be a nun. I'm not cuckoo. I started falling back into my old ways when Kemble kept upsetting me. He made me think no matter how much I improved it wouldn't matter until I was perfect. And even then it felt like my past kept me back and god would never want me. So why bother?"

She looked more upset and stared up at an image of Mary and curled her fingers a bit, starting to look like she'd cry. "Don't even say that. I would never do such a thing. I wasn't wanting a family before but I would never do such a thing. I know I'll love my kid and I love the guy who gave it to me. But I'm still angry you know."