Elijah actually gasped at the anger in his voice. He hung his head and his voice cracked as if he were about to cry.

"Actually, t-t-the holding at night hasn't added towards any desire. I know, you can't understand, but... due to my scars and.. other things.. I've always felt undesirable and more like a monster.. I never was close to anyone. I've discovered, d-due to.. his acceptance of me.. I like having contact with someone. It has little to do with ...that.."


Of course, liking him didn't hurt.

"I would probably enjoy..doing that.. with a woman too, but that would certainly be..seen as.. scandalous and wrong by others. And give them the wrong idea. So.. It's just him. It has helped me. I am sorry I've .. upset you so. I.. I will stop it, then.. if it is.. so wrong." He leaned forward putting his face in his hands. He hadn't felt so wrong and dirty in a long time.