The pub was noisy but not loud. It almost made a hum with the constant low rumble of voices. Perfect for a certain pirate to forget his woes. He wasn't going to be filled with self pity, he just had to be patient? Yes, patient. His mind had spun since he first saw that military vessel pass. Benny was sure it meant nothing, but damn it all. He checked and his captain was gone with the rest of the crew and the ship! He had cursed up a storm that he couldn't wait and send someone for him. He was stuck there until they decided to make their way back, if they did. 

"No, those guys wouldn't abandon me." He gripped the mug of beer and stared into it with a sharp frown as one hand ran through his hair. He slumped forward and took another swig. 

Sure, some of them were just bastards, but his captain was wonderful and cared about him. He'd be back, right? He was no coward, he was just being careful. A sigh escaped his lips as he closed his eyes and let his head droop until his forehead was resting uncomfortably on the top of his cup. The only solace was that he had all of the money for repairs that hadn't been spent yet. It would last a month or two if he was careful, right? Of course, Captain would be pissed. But what else was he to do? He wasn't going to save it and starve waiting. 

"I guess I need to figure out what I'm going to do now until then though.." He said quietly and felt tears well up in his eyes. Hell, he was pathetic if the idea of being alone again did this. He was so pissed off at himself.