"I only just discovered. Oh, Rose, I am so frightened. I know that Joe will be a good father but I fear I will fail. I have already done so many things wrong for trying to do the right things. And I have been nothing but sick for days now. I don't know, I don't feel like this is going to be a happy occasion for everyone. I can only imagine how eagerly I will be written about the moment my belly rounds out... And I know my father and mother will only hate me for it." She looked up then, shaking her head at herself. "The last thing I want is to make things worse."