James watched the stars for a little bit longer. The stars were peaceful. It took him back to his days sailing in the med were the heat was soo much that lads would sleep on deck just to get some air. He got lost in the night sky.

He heard motion from inside and a small cry. Dam it He thought. Now Maggie would be pissed at him even more because he had woken up Hannah. He thought for a moment then decided to wait a few minutes before heading back in.

The evenings had gotten worse. The sleepless nights the cold sweets, the smells and sounds were all becoming so vivid. Could he go to the doctor. Would they help or would he be told to suck it up. He wished he could explain it to Maggie. Make her understand rather than resent him for it.

Deep down he loved her and the kids more than anything but he knew his nighttime routine was driving a wedge between them. It was driving him insane. He was worried that if he spoke out he would be sent to the asylum. He rested his head against the masonry and let out a long sigh