HE would reach for her hand, cupping it in his if she allowed it. "Its gonna take time. i need to find somethin i can do that doesn't involve pullin a trigger." sam kissed her hand before he continued, "It was selfish of me to put all this on you, but i couldn't keep lyin either. I'm sorry." he didn't want to change only for her, but for their child. he had also come to see what he had taken from so many others and did not want to repeat that again. "i've taken a lot from a lot of people, i don't think my hands will ever be clean...but i'll do what i can to at least make what i can right."