Simon let Elijah hug him. He certainly didn't feel better. And yet he shook his head and continued: "I'm a cheat," he spat out. He might as well go over his other sins while he was at it. "Even now, this very fucking evening." He was almost desperate to find more. The idea that Elijah might turn away, disgusted was terrifying, and yet he also felt the need to shock the man and watch what happened.