Elijah's smile faded. "I.. was raised Catholic. And I attended a lot as a child but.. after my parents and other things.. I didn't know any more. I felt like God has marked me as cursed and unloved  Maybe that is still true." He laughed painfully and coughed again. "But I no longer blame him. It just happened and it's up to me how I deal with it... And I'm glad I changed my mind. " He looked at him then away. "You're a good priest. You've helped more more than you know."