"I hate that me brother thinks I just threw me heart around like Harold didn't matter. It isn't true. I am not fickle. I just..." She trailed off, looking down. "I want this, but I had hoped we could wait until me grieving period was over in six months and then perhaps... but people talk and what we did... what if I am pregnant again? I can't have a child out of wedlock. And no, this is not just because we should. I love ye."