Elijah looked at her sadly. "Please, it's still me. I've had this all my life that I've just ignored. I hated that part of me, and I wanted to change it but I can't. I am sorry but I didn't want to lie to you, and I don't want you blaming yourself for this." He sighed heavily hoping she wouldn't tell Ben. "I am happier living alone than hurting anyone with my character even if I did nothing, I can't be more for someone who deserves it like you." After what happened with Anthony, he surely wasn't going to try that again.