Elijah shook his head. "No. I...!.." He wilted visibly before her, leaning against the wall as his voice was a whisper as he was still filled with shame with himself. The fact that things between him and Anthony had proven it was a terrible choice he'd made. It had even ruined Gabriel. He hated himself for this. "I'm.. like Simon. Even though I had completely kept it to myself all these years." ... until now.