He was actually sounding reasonable and she didn't believe his sympathy. "You said awful things ta me, made me feel like God could never accept a woman like me. I could have been a good nun with patience and all." True, she did a lot of things while in the garb of a nun, but she had been trying. She hadn't gotten into a fight except to protect the church, that had to count. She was sure within a couple of years she might have been able to cut out men and the swearing. The drinking, she was sure, would have been the hardest.