Elijah froze at his words and he felt a little bit of himself crack as his eyes welled up but he didn't let a tear fall. It was difficult but he didn't want to give up as he had seen Anthony's good side and knew there was a wonderful man before him though he had his misgivings. He shook his head. "Things don't come easy. I should still have helped you feel safe and wanted. I admit, I must have been cold I have been letting things get to me. I wasn't thinking about what you needed most. That was my failing, not yours."