01-08-2022, 03:57 PM
(This post was last modified: 01-08-2022, 05:22 PM by Lottie Blacke.)
CW: Racism
The throwing of offspring and slamming of doors had been very cathartic in the moment. But, in the moments that followed Lottie became aware of just how she had failed as a mother, and ergo as a human, because what else was there to define her in this age? The list was growing longer:
1) She'd failed Charlie because her firstborn was long dead
2) She'd failed Ruth because her eldest had not heeded Lottie's motherly advice and gotten pregnant with a rake
3) She'd failed Joe, because he did not know his station and was busy dragging their reputations and that of the Carrington girl through the mud. Obviously.
4) She'd failed young Kate, raising her in the middle of this chaos. Would her bright star be dimmed by all this drama?
5) She couldn't think of a reason that she had failed John yet. Not unless he'd gone and married an Indian girl.
6) She failed as a wife because Bill didn't really love her anymore.
The throwing of offspring and slamming of doors had been very cathartic in the moment. But, in the moments that followed Lottie became aware of just how she had failed as a mother, and ergo as a human, because what else was there to define her in this age? The list was growing longer:
1) She'd failed Charlie because her firstborn was long dead
2) She'd failed Ruth because her eldest had not heeded Lottie's motherly advice and gotten pregnant with a rake
3) She'd failed Joe, because he did not know his station and was busy dragging their reputations and that of the Carrington girl through the mud. Obviously.
4) She'd failed young Kate, raising her in the middle of this chaos. Would her bright star be dimmed by all this drama?
5) She couldn't think of a reason that she had failed John yet. Not unless he'd gone and married an Indian girl.
6) She failed as a wife because Bill didn't really love her anymore.
