Anthony didn't know what to say or do, and was dangerously close now to just breaking down in front of Elijah. "Whatever it is that's bothering me, it's not your fault," he tried to reassure Elijah. The last thing he wanted was for him to feel guilty or bad about something that is purely only Anthony's fault. "it's just that—that I'm scared. Scared that I'll just ruin this like I have ruined everything else in my life that's good, that I'll scare you off with....all this," he gestured vaguely, "and I—I don't even know how the fuck I'm supposed to act in situations like this, I don't know what the hell I'm supposed to do, and I—" Anthony stopped himself before he could vent any more, already feeling indescribable guilt at dumping all his problems on Elijah without any warning. At this point, there were tears in his eyes.