He shrugged looking away. "All the more reason you didn't want to be bothered. I understand." He rubbed his hands together and stared down at his shoes. "I.. I am doing better.. over all. But.. I've been having thoughts.. now about someone.. specific. It is wrong enough but they are.. extra wrong. It is more sinful to think of them so. And we are not even friends. I don't know why he affects me and I want to forget it completely."