Now he knew he heard it. It was crying. His head lifted and he struggled for a moment before walking to the door and knocking again. "Please.. I am so sorry that.. I can't help it. Do .. you hate me now? I know I shouldn't have found someone. It isn't what God wants for me, but.. "He hung his head and wrapped his arms around himself. "It isn't about.. you know.. sin. I just..want to feel a little love in my life. I guess.. I'm pretty pathetic right?" He smiled weakly but felt the tears fall down his face.